Do I actually have a mother's instinct? I feel like I am always second guessing myself.
Last night baby had a meltdown. And he was doing his pain cry, and it wasn't stopping for anything. I kept wondering if something was actually wrong, but I wasn't getting that gut feeling that something was. I took his temperature, I tried feeding him, Jeff tried walking him, we tried rubbing his belly, everything. And nothing was seeming to work. Finally Jeff took off his diaper, rubbed his belly while I rubbed his head and he passed out.
I don't know if he was just too tired or had some stomach pains or both (he had refused to sleep between 4 and 7). But I am still doubting myself on when I will actually know there is a problem. When would we actually need to go to the doctor, because he is sick? But he didn't have a fever right? Except that I never had fevers when I was sick as a kid or baby. I had several ear infections that were not always known about because I didn't have a fever and I didn't always scream. This worries me.
What if he is the same and doesn't get fevers but is crying because he is sick and I don't know that. And then my mommy instinct that is suppose to kick in doesn't, will he just get more sick until it is a major issue?
I really hope that it was just a fluke and there wasn't anything wrong besides being tired because otherwise I am going to feel guilty, like always. At least I have mommy guilt!
But here he is being cute, like he is 95% of the time: