Thursday, February 28, 2013
In the ultrasound there was no heartbeat and the baby had stopped growing at 9 weeks.
I am upset of course, I wanted this baby so bad. I was in shock for a bit and then of course cried for a while.
But at the same time, I know I will get past it. It will take time but I will be in a good place soon enough. Thankfully I have Leland to lean on and love on. I can only imagine that it helps already having a child to mentally getting past this. I know I can have another child, this just wasn't the one.
Thursday morning I am going in for a D&C. Thankfully they were able to get me in sooner rather than later. I am ready to put this behind me. I was so anxious for something to wrong in this pregnancy, so much more than when I was pregnant Leland. I feel like I can relax a bit now. Even though it hurts, at least I don't need to be anxious about it anymore.
I may be quiet for a bit, but I think you will understand why.