Complete

I have been thinking lately how I wish I could freeze time right now.  Life is just good.  Leland is good.  I never want to forget the day to day things that I am sure I will eventually.  I am going to try and use my camera more to capture those moments I never want to forget.  Moments like him running to my room when I ask him if he wants to nurse, him getting upset when we leave the girl's house, how he pats my back when giving me a hug, and on and on. 

I have also been thinking about how I feel complete now.  Before Leland I was always looking forward to the next big event in my life, even if that happened to be the weekend or happy hour.  Now I don't do that as much, I am really enjoying this moment right now.  If for some reason I wasn't able to have any more kids, I would be sad for a moment, but I would be okay in the end.  Because I am complete now and any more additions would just be that much better but not necessary if life takes another course. 

This Saturday was a perfect day for some reason and it is hard to describe why.

But it was followed with a very trying Sunday(today), funny how it goes like that. 

I would still like to freeze time. 

I never want this little boy to grow any bigger or stop enjoying life as much as he does (when tantrums are not being thrown). 

And yes I am going to quote a Taylor Swift song right now because when I first heard it I may or may not have cried:

"Your little hands wrapped around my finger
And it's so quiet in the world tonight
Your little eyelids flutter 'cause you're dreaming
So I tuck you in, turn on your favorite night light

To you, everything's funny
You got nothing to regret
I'd give all I have, honey
If you could stay like that

Oh, darling, don't you ever grow up, don't you ever grow up
Just stay this little
Oh, darling, don't you ever grow up, don't you ever grow up
It could stay this simple

I won't let nobody hurt you
Won't let no one break your heart
No, no one will desert you
Just try to never grow up, never grow up"