Dear Leo

Dear Leland,

I cannot believe that you are here and already 5 days old.  I cannot believe you are all mine.  It does not seem real that I am blessed with such a sweet, cuddly baby.  The entire experience does not seem to be true, I am having a hard time believing all of this has happened.  I have felt this way since I found out I was pregnant, I was so excited but I just could not believe it was actually true.

I love your expressions, your toes, your lips, your nose, everything.  I love watching you eat, your peach fuzz on your arms and back.  Your cute rat tail.  How you look when you sleep, that you often have your mouth wide open. 

It is hard to imagine you growing up and getting big, a part of me wants to see you talk and walk but then a part of me wants you to be this sweet baby forever.  I can instantly start crying if I think about you getting big because I am so happy you are here and I don't want you to ever grow up and stop being a baby. 

I am very thankful that your daddy works so hard so I don't have to go back to work because I could not imagine having to leave you.  I don't think it is going to go well the first time I have to leave you, when I have to go back for a test in a few short weeks.  

It is crazy that I can already tell you are growing and I shouldn't be surprised by it by how much you are eating.  But please slow down just a bit, I need you to stay small. 

And despite the kitties wanting to rule the house, you have already taken over the domain.  And I am afraid they know it and are trying to deal with it.

Baby Leo, I love you. 

Mommy